She's gone. :(

Posted on: July 24, 2008 - 5:01pm
She's gone. :(
Alright, well I totally fell in love with this girl in summer school. I already knew I might be a gay before then, but falling for her made me realize that I was. I was going to ask her out, this week. Everyday after class I felt like it would be my last chance. But Fear, the mind killer. Held me back, I was too fucking scared to talk to her. To say "hey I like you..." And today was the LAST day of summer school. I had a sticky, and I wrote "would you like to go to the movies with me on friday." and stuck it in my fucking pocket, but when the time came to give it to her. I couldn't! I was too shy. My sister was waiting for me outside the classroom and I felt like everyone was watching. Everything happened too fast. I cried in the car. I can't stand myself right now, it feels horrible to have to go along with what society wants me to be. To pretend. And there's nothing, there's no one to talk to about this. I am frustrated, and sad. Will I ever see her again? No! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! :'( This is making me sick, I wanted her so bad. What if I never like someone as much as i liked her?

Posted on: July 25, 2008 - 12:08am #1

Omg!

I've read your other two posts and they jumped from "I like this girl" to "I've come out to friends because I like this girl" to this. Do you know her name or any information?

Hey, maybe you can Facebook/Myspace her or something? Or ask friends or whatever. It's never too late! (Ok, that's a bit too optimistic, but..) you can always do something about it. Yups. I say, don't give in yet. 

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- Grandmother in "The Road to Rankin's Point" by Alistair Macleod 
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Posted on: July 25, 2008 - 12:52am #2
haha :) yea She's very important in my little life. I'm trying to ask everyone that goes to that highschool if they know her. I KNOW she likes me. I wish I had found this place sooner to get the guts. Hopefully I will get a hold of her somehow.
Posted on: July 25, 2008 - 12:57am #3

Oy vey! She likes you too! AND you know it?!

Don't give up! XD Someone has to know her sooner or later, right? By the way, would there be a next year when September comes around? Or have one of you (or both of you) graduated?

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"No one has ever said that life is to be easy. Only that it is to be lived."
- Grandmother in "The Road to Rankin's Point" by Alistair Macleod 
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Posted on: July 25, 2008 - 1:03am #4
Wow, I hope that you can track her down. Good luck.
Posted on: July 25, 2008 - 2:25am #5
thanks guys! I met her in summer school, I realllly hope someone knows her.
Posted on: July 27, 2008 - 1:51pm #6
Yeah...umm I definately have some experience checking up on people online. Its not stalking, but self defense :P don't judge! Anyway, nowadays everyone has some sort of online life in our generation.

And about not liking anyone else as much? I think its impossible to keep from changing, and that when you do alot of things are possible you never thought would be, or could be. But still definately pursue her. You've got nothing to lose.

And my thoughts on long distance relationships are well, physical distance can't compare to emotional distance. As in, difficulties while away from each other are not even near as bad as being right next to them and hating their guts...as far as "distance" goes. Anyway, best of luck to you!

"The only thing worse than being talked about is not being talked about."- Oscar Wilde
Posted on: July 27, 2008 - 2:35pm #7
I absolutely loved the flood of thoughts that I waded through when I read your idea of "long distance relationships" not necessarily being limitted to physical distance.

Even though I know relationships like that exist (often for decades before coming to an end) I had never thought of them in those terms!  Hearing it like that puts it into a different persepctive.

You better believe that I am going to use that phrase one of these days! :D


PS: WickedFemme you and I live in the same city AND state!


"That which is to give light must endure burning"
- Viktor Frankl
Posted on: July 30, 2008 - 10:58am #8
Gladiatorgirl, I am completely blopwn away by that and will be spending some time thinking through it....
Posted on: August 9, 2008 - 10:02pm #9
Guess what guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FOUND HER!! :) AND SHE LIKES ME TOO :D Thanks everyone for helping out, i love you guys to death.
Posted on: August 10, 2008 - 5:19pm #10
Omg! Hahaa.. congrats!! Let us know what happens.. d-(^_^)-b 
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Posted on: August 14, 2008 - 1:33am #11
aww!! It's good to know the internet is good for something after all :D