right now, i'm quite depressed/frustrated/angry/worried, about stuff that's going on in my jrotc. people weren't kidding when they said that it went to crap, i just didn't really understand what kind of crap it was until now. all of the favoritism and stuff like that is just running rampant in the corps and is obviously unnoticed by my sergeant. i was amazed that i'm on the other side of the favoritism, the losing side... or at least the losing side for now. the other day i was told in a round about way that basically the reason why i got a crap job was because i wasn't here last year and that other cadets have more experience than i do... excuse my french, but bull fucking shit. i understand a little why they wouldn't switch me with the commander of golf flight because i am currently the flight sergeant, although he was a rank lower than me (which changed today) he did join the corps at the same time i did, so i can level with that. but when i suggested to my superior that i take over delta flight i got this whole speech on how it's so much better to be golf flight because you get to help cadets and blah blah blah blah blah... the commander of delta flight has one year in the corps is a staff sergeant (E-4) and a complete dumbass which i know for a fact because he was in one of my classes the year before he joined. i have had two years in the corps, and although one of those years was spent in arizona i have gone to two of the california corps' summer leadership camps, by far giving me more experience than him.

and get this, we had camp promotions today, guess who didn't get promoted? i'll give you a big hint: ME. somehow, me being the commander of the flight that got the outstanding flight award at camp didn't get promoted... makes no sense right? 

so guess who did get promoted, the current golf flight commander, which now makes him the same rank as me, so now i can't say that they aren't using our sergeant's rank to position system. also, the only person who got chief master sergeant off of camp just so happens to be one of the people that was deciding our rank's boyfriend... starting to sound a little more messed up as i give more details? and yet another thing that i find messed up, my squadron commander got promoted, but neither myself nor the other flight comm in our squad was promoted... so it seems that our leadership wasn't affected at all by him? he gets credit for having the outstanding flight, but i don't? i don't get credit for being thrust into my flight commander position the FIRST DAY OF CAMP and getting outstanding flight, when everyone else knew at the end of the previous school year what their positions were?and yet they ALL still weren't good enough to get outstanding flight, and most of them were promoted?

tomorrow, or as soon as i can, i'm going to have a nice long chat with my sergeant about why in the hell his senior cadets are not adhearing to how he wants things to run and about the extreme favoritism being shown. and if he doesn't resolve the problem at all, i'm going to talk to captain about this, because i know for a fact he doesn't like the whole favoritism thing, he had a major problem with it that he fixed when he started his job 13 years ago, so i'm sure if my sergeant doesn't fix it, i'm just going to have to work up the courage and not worry about my own well being in the corps.

i am SOOOO done with cadet bullshit it's not even funny, these are senior cadets acting like five year olds picking their boyfriends and bestfriends and kids they like for positions. they need to grow up.