I'm so completely over everything. I've turned into more of a bitch then I knew I could be.. but I just can't stand people. I have so much to do and so manything things going on in life that I just feel like most of my relationships are taking up space and time that I need for other things... so I'm kicking people out of my life. None of you... love you guys.

And like... I don't know what to do about this girl. We had a short thing when I was like fourteen and like, it meant a lot to me. I don't know what it was about her but it stuck with me for almost four years... and I got back in touch with her recently. And like... she wont go away. She's like totally falling for me... and it's weird. She's now going to college for the same thing that I am. She's trying to make me jealous that all these other girls want her... even though I'm pretty sure she's making it all up. She gets all pissy when I'm haning out with another girl, even if it's just a friend. And I made the mistake of agreeing that I wouldn't let us get out of touch again.... and I just can't handle her anymore. I told her before, it was fun for a weekend, but I don't want anything else, and she's just not getting it.. I'm not looking for anything. And it's not even just a relationship, her just being around is driving me insane. I don't want to be her friend... but I can't hurt her. So I'm trying to do it slowly, just not inviting her over anymore, and being nice but trying not to seem to into the conversations and stuff.. but it's not working. What do I do?

School is no good... I'm doing great in one class, ok in another but the third... so not ok. And I don't know why. I study hard, always do the work... and like, it's just not working. It's psychology, which is what I'm majoring in, so it's kinda important...

I'm trying to move out. I can't take it at my house anymore. I couldn't go through another quarter there. My mom's like.... crazy. I don't know what happened to her. We haven't been close or getting along well for years now but lately it's like... I don't know where she went.

My hours and pay were cut... I'm not making enough to cover the bills I have to pay let alone save for a place and a car that I need and stuff.

We have a bitch roomate... I hate her. Like really. She's always in your face, loud, annoying, has to be the center of everything, ex crackhead with fucked teeth and a mullet... I don't even want to go home cuz I'm going to snap on her soon.

We got a puppy though. he makes me happy.

Well I dont know what the whole purpose of this rant was.. but I wrote too much to delete it... maybe I'll add more later when I remember.