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Posted on: March 26, 2009 - 3:41pm
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Well, yesterday I got in a fight with my mom after she picked me up after a play. One thing lead to another and now I'm out of her house, permanently. It's a funny feeling, like this moment has been building up for a long time, and now that it came, I expected an explosion but instead I got a drizzling leak. The argument started because I was angry and wrote to my boyfriend that I hated her, and I've said that before in journals and everything, so she was upset about it. Now she said that I'm pretty much dead to her. I don't love her, but what I have isn't exactly hate, so it's interesting. But I can't say that I'm sad that this happened either, it's very strange. I don't even know what to feel about this situation either, it's just kind of bleh.

Posted on: March 26, 2009 - 6:11pm #1
Well, I can't see how you could really see the situation as positive or negative. I mean, she's obviously difficult but no matter what she's your mother. Its probably just a feeling of relief- as you said, its been a long time coming. Do you have any options or know what your next step will be? Its a life-changing occurance but that doesn't mean its not all for the better in the end. Your life is pretty much in your own hands now. Just do what you have to do. Keep us all posted. :) Best of luck!
Posted on: March 28, 2009 - 7:15pm #2
So what are your plans? As for having a difficult relationship with your mother, My bio mom and her mother have nothing to do with one another. And my adoptive mother and I had a messed up relationship. So it does happen. Take care of yourself. And I'm glad that while you do not feel love for her yopu also are not bogged down in hate for her.
I imagine my own kids will most likely end up in that space about me.
Posted on: March 30, 2009 - 1:18am #3
 umm... where are you staying now kevin?
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Posted on: April 4, 2009 - 3:23pm #4
Oy vey...

I hope you're taking care of yourself, yea? I guess it's good you're not consumed with anger and such, but I hope you're figuring out your next-steps. Like Dory from Finding Nemo ('cuz that movie is awesome) said, "Just keep swimming!"



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Posted on: April 6, 2009 - 7:25pm #5
hahahaha the 'is dory on drugs' one is pathetic lol
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Posted on: April 9, 2009 - 1:20am #6
Well, things are a little better now. I'm refusing to talk to her because some of the earlier things she said I find unforgivable. She's bouncing between trying to be loving and caring to being really angry and bitchy. I think it might be best to stay away from her, I really don't want any more contact with her for a good while. But my dad's really cool about this whole thing, and things are a lot better.
Posted on: April 9, 2009 - 11:40am #7
Well, let us know how things progress and let us know that you have a place to stay and are ok.