I remember feeling like that with my ex, we had pretty much the same story only i didnt meet her at 12, i met her at 17, and like i knew i was having more feelings for girls than any guy ever. but i wasnt convinced. Then i met her. The first time we talked we stayed up all night. it was the first time i had someone i could really connect with. I didnt have to be what everyone wanted, but i could be me. and it was an amazing feeling. and i related that amazing feeling to it only being her. and the reason i felt amazing was all her.looking on it now, i still love her, but not the same. she had my heart for a year, and to say that its all completely gone is a lie. Its not a feeling of i wanna be with her. its more of a i care for her enough that if anything were to happen i would be there for her. I feel with true love, and i dont mean puppy love i mean the real thing. i feel with TRUE love, it doesnt just get erased. it cant. because once you actually love someone, theyve gotten a piece of your heart, and its not a gift you can take back.

But going along with that thought you also have to keep in mind why every thought you have is him. At this point its still fresh, so its hard not to be consumed by it, but after some time you'll realize you can think of him, smile, and then move on.

I feel all to often in relationships when they end, people feel they are supposed to hate the other or completely erase them, and i dont feel like thats possible or a good thing to do. Im not saying be best friends with them. Although we all know the lesbians do that. lol. but no im not saying be his best bud, im just saying realize that he was a big part of your life and has a piece of your heart and move on.

It will take time, lots of it, given the amount of time that he's been there and with you. But take in that time and realize one day, you'll have that same feeling back with another boy, and honestly even another boy, and possibly another. Im not going to say your too young to only want one person, because its happend before but you also have alot of opportunities coming up where you will meet a lot more people. I think im rambling...



i guess what im trying to say, is there are stages that you have to work through before getting to the point where i am and where others have been, where you can think of them, smile and realize they are a part of your past.


on another note, i just wanted to say sorry, because i still remembering going through that feeling of not wanting to live but not wanting to die, but just wanting to hide. so i do feel where your coming from hun.

i think more people should comment....
because i keep checking back hoping
ill see something or read something
that will maybe help this out just
a little and no one replies D:


plz

There's nothing I can say to take away the pain, or to lessen the blow of heartbreak. I have never been through such an experience; I have never been in any sort of relationship with any person throughout my 15 years of life. But, that doesn't mean I don't understand the pain of heartbreak.

For me, love is such a powerful word, I rarely used it because of the strong meaning behind it, and I didn't want people to take it for granted when I said it. I used words like wuv or luv in replace, or simply, I really care for you. I meet this girl who shares my class. At first I thought nothing much of her, she was attractive, but nothing hooked me in. Then about a few weeks later she said something and I knew, I liked her.

For the past five years in my life I never got my hopes up about anything, I was a depressed person. I hated it, getting hopes for something or making an assumption and embarrassing yourself realizing you were wrong, it sucks. Then the next month she read a poem to the class, a love poem. Everything she said, I thought it was about me. My friend believed so too, and it was in the same month the girl I liked found out I liked her due to the way I acted around her. Later on more things happened, eventually I told her I liked her, and a month after (which was last month actually) I told her that I love her.
 
She's never said no, when I confessed both times I stated "I know you don't want to be with me..." she never agrees or nods her head, she told me she doesn't want a relationship now, A few weeks ago she went to a semi formal with her ex-boyfriend, and in school she almost always talks about him. When I invited her to come to a festival with me and some other classmates she said right away she'd go only if she could bring her ex too.

People say love hurts actually that's not the case. Here's a poem, written by Karima Puzon entitled: Answer to the Question: Does Love Hurts?

A lot of people believe
That love is the most painful feeling
They just believe that
Love hurts

Does love hurts?
Love doesn't hurt at all
Love is the most wonderful feeling on earth
With this you feel protected
Love gives you a suiting feeling
Loves takes you to wonderful places

Who says love hurts?
Love gives you passion
Love makes you reach the stars
Love smells like freshly bloomed flowers

Love makes you swim the deepest ocean
Love makes you move mountains
Love builds bridges..
Love is Love

So you think that
Loving someone who doesn't love you back hurts?
Loving somebody who loves another hurts
Loving nobody at all hurts?
Being loved by nobody hurts?
So love does hurt?
I don't think so

Falling out of love hurts
Betrayal hurts
Not having love hurts
Love doesn't hurt

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This is so true, you were in love, maybe you still are. It's possible to move on doesn't mean you want to, or have to. And even if that's what you decide, once love is experienced it never truly goes away, for Dean you'll always hold a place for him in your heart. For whatever reason it was, the feelings he had for you didn't hold up. I can't say the reasons; I can't go into Dean's mind and say he did what he did because of this. Basically, you fell; sometimes it's hard to get up. We all fall down, but it doesn't mean that we've failed. We've only fail when we refuse to climb back up. Take this as an experience you learned from, I'm not saying that this'll never happen again. Maybe you'll get hurt again, but take it in stride. Let yourself feel the pain and realize the reality, then stand back up and take on the bull by it's horns. You're an amazing person and you deserve happiness. That sounds strange because we've never met, but does that mean I can't say it? You opened up to everyone on this site and let them know of the real pain that you've felt. You are amazing; never forget that 'kay dude? Remember to love yourself, that person will come, and they will not let you go. And don't forget no matter how many times you've fallen you can always get back up again.

If you ever want to talk more feel free to message me or hit me up on aim, my name’s on my profile ^^ Hope things work out for you.

I felt that way towards my best friend, Ashlee.  We were besties for nine years, and i got attatched to her more and more, until i believed i was in love with her. She promised to be friends with me forever, and no matter what i do, she'd always be my bestie. Then, i told her i liked girls. She was the first person i told, and the only person i trusted at the time. She was my only friend for years because i was a "freak" at school....
After i told her i was a lesbian she started to become distant. Then we got to our junior/senior highschool this year, and she wasn't the same around me at all. I used to cry myself to sleep thinking about what i would ever do if i lost her. Now she's gone. She makes fun of me with all the others, and even starts rumors about me. She's the one who i fell in love with; who made me realize who i am.
When she left, i cried myself to sleep every night, hating myself for who i am. I couldn't look at my reflection without crying. Looking into my eyes, was like looking into a void. I couldn't stand myself. Then rumor got out, i was a lesbian. Some started by my exgirlfriend, others started by Ashlee... Seeing her laughing at me, glaring at me like i was just another freak everyone hates. What happened to friends forever? What ever happened to "no matter what"? I loved her, and she now treats me like I deserve to be punished. What did i ever do wrong...?