so italy is pretty cool. kinda sucks right now because of this crap going on with libya. we have sooooo many people at my base right now it's ridiculous. working 12 on 12 off is not fun. 

 so italy is pretty cool. kinda sucks right now because of this crap going on with libya. we have sooooo many people at my base right now it's ridiculous. working 12 on 12 off is not fun. 

I am not going to say anything too lengthy.  Not really sure I have it in me.  But, alas the time we knew was coming arrived this morning at 6:40.  Her father passed away. 

I know it has been quite some time since I actually posted on here.  But, I've just not been on much...

I am still staying with my friend and her family helping care for her father.  He regressed...  He had to go back to the hospital.  He'll be returning a few days.  There is nothing more they can do.  Hospice will be coming in.  Aparently, his brain has swollen more and there is a new tumor.  They can't put the piece of skull they removed back due to the swelling and can't get to the new tumor.  Terminal....  That word had not hit so hard till just a few days ago.  A few weeks at best...

My cousins family have now gotten to their last extension on the foreclosure.  Within a week they will know whether or not losing the house is inevitable.  Where they go~that is still a question unanswered.

My sister-in-laws mother (my other mom) she has been in and out of the hospital since she had most of her colon removed.  Currently she is doing fine...

I do hope all is well with you all!  ^_^

 She's not my mother, but she has been another "Mom" to me since I was around 16.  I suppose it has now been 3 days...  She was in the hospital again, she's been in and out of the hospital for about 2 years now, for complications with her breathing, but 3 days ago she went into a cardiac arrest...  She's been on life support and sedated since they brought her back.  I just don't know...  I guess, I feel like I'm losing emotions, but I'm unsure...  It's just hard right now.  I've been staying here at my friends house to help out the best I can.

Her father had surgery for a brain tumor, they removed part of his skull...  Since he has been home he's fallen about 5 times, one of those times he had to go to the emergency room.  And one night we thought we lost him, he had passed out when he fell.  I had phone in hand ready to call 911.  

It has been rough now the last couple of years anyways, knowing the anniversary of my little sisters death is coming 2 days before Thanksgiving next month...

It's hard on me, let alone my mother...  The last memory she has of my sister is seeing her in the hospital hooked up to all those machines, gone...  And now, her best friend of ten years, my brother's mother-in-law, hooked up to those same machines!

We lost Grandma last winter and uncle Richie in March...

And you know, I feel horrid for thinking this... But, my birthday is on Thursday, I want her to pull through soooo bad, because I don't want to have this linked with my birthday.  Is that so wrong to think that?  

I've been going back and forth of whether I want to go see her... I want to remember her without the machines, I don't do well during times of death and sorrow, but I feel if I don't then I will have lost my chance to say 'goodbye'... I didn't get to with my sister... with my sister it was a telephone call I rushed off of because she was calling to talk to mom and i was too 'busy' to talk to her, playing a god forsaken game!  I regret that...

Just wanted to say /HELLO/   :)


~Valerian

You know come to think about it...  A more socially adept OM wouldn't be such a bad thing, with or without the name being an issue.  But, I worry if this would go back to being a hopping place that it wouldn't be the same.  I like it how it is now, very similar~ish to Outminds.  The other sites that I checked out they were more like casual sex hook up sites...  I just thought I'd put that out there, so that maybe we could prepare ourselves for that possibility, but in a way to try to prevent it.  Which I know it would be a lost cause in the aspect of having private messaging, but you have to agree.  Looking at a persons profile and reading forum posts of that nature is vulgar, keep it in pm's!

 so i had to med roll out of class so i could get a root canal last week and i've been on detail since then working cbq, which pretty much means i get to be a maid and clean up around the squadron area. i clean until lunch then usually watch tv until 1400. this is quite possibly worse than when i had to work in the outpatient records room at the hospital. i seriously just want to kill someone it's so boring.

So, I am sure some of you are quite aware of the issues surrounding my sister and family.  It seems the judge in charge of her case held a hearing for her today at 12:30.  I haven't heard any word on the outcome, but I do know the last time she was standing before him he told her in not the nicest of tones if he would ever happen to see her stand in his court room again he would not hesitate to throw her in jail, seeing as she kept choosing to not straighten up even after giving birth to a child.  We shall see I suppose! 

So...  Odd turn of events...  I guess we should have seen this coming, it was after all...  Inevitable!

About 1 am last night my sister, whom had borrowed my car, ran from the cops and wrecked my car while Tessa happened to be with her.  Luckily, Tessa is safe and sound.  I guess that's what matters...  Car is pretty much totalled.  And looks like Angie is going to jail.

Not entirely sure what she was messed up on, but they had to corner her at a church, then it took her almost an hour to locate our number.  Looks like she was pretty out there not to remember her own telephone number.  Has my cell phone that she conveniently borrowed and looks like my parents are getting custody of Tessa.  The sheriff allowed them to go and pick Tessa up without having child protective services called.  So, with my brother on home confinement, my lil sis passing, and now with Angie going to jail...

In one aspect I am not upset, but with the other...  I mean it was just 3 days ago I was thrown into room with my little sisters killer...  And haven't been the nicest person in the world to Angie, I almost feel like I may have had something to do with how high she got  last night...  Responsible maybe... I don't know anymore!